Can You Guess Why We Are So Happy This Morning?

It's been a busy week at the Henrion House. These Two Handsome little boys started school on Tuesday!!! We signed them up for a two day a week preschool program at our church. I say "our" church because its where we got married and where we go WHEN we do actually get up that early on a Sunday!!! They could NOT have been happier!!! They loved it!!!

Me on the other hand....not quite so happy:( I've been a nervous wreck about it. Actually both Nate and I have been. I LOVE my children but I also know that they are not the best behaved children all the time. Is Sam going to get scared and feel intimidated? Is Parker going to be able to control his temper and share with the other kids? All these thoughts running through my head as I walked out the door of the school without my two little side kicks. I missed them terribly during that entire 2 1/2 hours. I'm used to leaving them but it's usually with my Mom who loves them up and spoils them so I'm 100% comfortable and I know they are in good LOVING hands.

So I got there at 11:15 and sat in the parking lot watching the clock tick away and at 11:29 I headed in. The teacher was so sweet and said they had fun and they behaved pretty good. She said its going to take a while for them to get used to the routine of the class. While they were in school I went to Party City and got them each a Star Balloon and some special treats to celebrate their first day. I could tell that they really felt like "Big Boys" that day.

I just have to say that I HATE IT!!! I'm sad that they are growing up so fast, I'm sad that someone else is teaching them things because so far pretty much everything that they have learned is something I have taught them. I have never worried so much as I have since the whole "school" thing. I worry if other kids will like them and if they will fit in. I worry that other kids will think that Parker is too overbearing and not want to play with him. I worry that other kids will think that Sam is a cry baby because he is so sensitive. I have never questioned my parenting skills as much as I have in the last month. I wonder if this is normal? I love those two boys more than anything in the world and the thought of letting go and allowing them to spread their wings in the world is just terrifying to me. One thing I'm certain of and that is they will always have a very safe, loving and nurturing environment at home. I will always be their biggest cheerleader!!!

Tomorrow morning we do this all over again and I'm hoping that with time it gets easier and I can actually enjoy that 2 1/2 hours.